song part 1

It's easy to change the things that you think you know
It's easy to break the guard down of people trying to grow
But take a step back and look all around
There's people trying to save you from running into the ground.

It's easy to judge the things that don't go your way
It's easy to tell the people just what you think they should say
But take a step back and listen to the crowd
Theres people trying to break through your shell if they're allowed.

FUCK EVERYTHING AND EVERYONE I HATE THIS FUCKING SHIT. SERIOUSLY. I WANT TO JUMP OFF A FUCKIN BUILDING AND DIE LIKE MY FALLNIG OF BUILDING EMOTICON. THEN I CAN JUMP AND SPLATTER EVERYWHERE ALL OVER THE FUCKIN GROUND.

NO SERIOUSLY.

I AM SO FUCKIN OVER EVERYTHING. I AM SO OVER UNI. I AM SO OVER AUSTRALIA. I WANT TO GO BACK TO MALAYSIA AND I WISH THINGS WERE NOT AS COMPLICATED AS THEY WERE. I WISH I COULD JUST PACK UP AND GO BACK HOME BUT I CANT BECUASE I HAVE TOO MANY THINGS HERE TO LEAVE BEHIND. OK MAYBE JUST MY FAMILY AND JORDAN. I DONT GIVE A RATS ASS ABOUT ANYTHING ELSE LIKE MY EDUCATION. WHO FUCKIN NEEDS A FUCKIN EDUCATION? NOT ME!!!!!!

I'M SMART ENOUGH TO VENTURE INTO THE WORLD NOW. I HAVE A DIPLOMA. I JUST WANT TO GO HOME. I HAVE HAD ENOUGH! ENOUGH!!!! ENOUGH!!!!!!!!!!!

ENOUGH!!!!!

WHY DOES EVERYTHING HAVE TO BE SO FUCKIN HARD? NO REALLY. WHY?!?!?! WHY CANT I JUST CONTINUE MY LIFE HAPPY AS LARRY. WHY DOES THERE ALWAYS HAVE TO BE ONE FUCKING THING OR ONE FUCKIN PERSON WHO IS ALWAYS TEHRE TO MAKE MY LIFE A FUCKIN MISERY?

FUCK THIS SHIT.






dont worry. i'm not about to kill myself. i'm just really really really over it.


and you! you fuckin bitch can just seriously go and cry all you want cuz you know what? NOBODY GIVES A FUCKIN SHIT ABOUT YOU! NOBODY CARES ABOUT HOW YOU'VE GONE THROUGH HELL AND BACK! ITS FUCKIN OLD NEWS! ITS BEEN SO MANY YEARS YOU HAVE TO FUCKIN GET OVER IT! HOW CAN YOU GO AND PREACH YOUR FUCKING LIFE TO EVERYBODY AND STILL HAVE ALL THESE ISSUES WITH YOURSELF???
"OH SHE HATES ME. OH I WANT TO CRY" BLABLABLABLAFUCKINGBLA.
GO FUCKIN CUT YOURSELF YOU STUPID ATTENTION SEEKING FUCKIN WHORE.

ramblings

you know... i have 33 days till i get back to malaysia.

33 days before i can see my family and friends.
33 days before i can smell the lovely malaysian air.
33 days before i can start eating malaysian food and slowly progressing to becoming a giantess.
33 days before i can catch up with OLLLLDDDD friends.
33 days before i can shop my lil heart out.
33 days before i can eat my butter prawn indo mee. *drool*

so as soon as my exam is over next week, i shall be using my free 2 week pass to the gym. i shall be going to the gym every fuckin day for 2 weeks for at LEAST 2 hours a day.

i know i know... its a bit crazy and unrealistic. but screw you guys! lol!

I CAN DO IT!!

and i will do it. i've already started cutting down my food intakes by half. poor belly is groaning and moaning for more food... stupid belly. LISTEN TO YOUR MASTER! I SAY NO FOOD! *growl*

oh my god. i have 2 assignments due tmrw and i have not finished them yet. so fuckin screwed can die.

-_-'

FUCKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

you know? i just wanna give up on the whole stupid idea of university. seriously. i have a fuckin diploma. i can just start working now. i dont want to do uni anymore. i feel bad for making my mum spend money on me for something i really dont wanna do. i mean, if she wants to spend money on me, buy me a car... not an education.

i dont want an education anymore. sooooooooooo over it!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!11



















gar. SO OVERRR ITTTTTT!!!!!!!!!!!!!


ok... i should go now. if i finish these assignments... i still have a chance of passing.

*sigh*

love,
jo